She was the first one to come see my in the hospital when I was born. She played ultimate frisbee and the mandolin, and she never criticized me for being who I was but always called me on my shit. She was perfect, despite her imperfections. She was the best aunt I could have ever asked for, and I can only hope to be a part of someone's life in the way that she was part of mine.
After a courageous two year battle with cancer, she is pain free now. So that's something worth being grateful. I'm happy for her, and heartbroken for myself. I loved her. And I still do.
So, as I'm behind on my gratitude (and quite frankly haven't been keeping up with it while I haven't been writing it down), I am finally ready to offer up my gratitude for:
- getting to spend time with my aunt and uncle while I was in Seattle in September saying goodbye to my grandmother.
- Kelli and Justin getting to (respectively) meet Eileen while she was alive.
- being able to go to Eileen's memorial service in Maryland, whenever it happens.
- having Amy here.
- having a Lost marathon to lose myself in.
- good music.
- new music.
- the blanket my uncle gave me for Christmas.
- sweatpants.
- it being okay that plans have drastically changed this week (and especially tonight).
- the great Christmas cards that are peppering my desk.
- Rufus and Sophie.
- The Princess and the Frog. Amy and I went to see it the day before yesterday, and it was absolutely amazing. It's probably my favorite Disney movie of all time. The music is fantastic.
- movie days.
- being closer to getting to Seattle.
- good books.
- the prospect of cupcakes tonight (if I get my act together and make them).
- all the love and support that my friends have given me over the past week.
- days where I can wear a jacket and scarf but still rock sunglasses.
- random fits of laughter.
It's New Year's Eve tonight, and I'm spending it in. It's been a long week, and I have a lot to process. Peace and light to everyone.
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