"I thought, I can do better than that."

It's been a million years since my last post, and a lot of crazy shit has gone down. (Crazy good and crazy bad.)

I kinda feel like I should try to recap my last few weeks, but the task seems so daunting that I'm not even going to try. Most of you know it already anyway. Instead, I'd like to focus on what I'm grateful for here, tonight (or this morning, depending on how you look at it), in this now moment. Some of that is sure to be from the last few weeks... we'll see what I come up with.

In this moment, I am grateful for:

• hot tea with lemon.
• the amazing friends I made during RENT. I know they probably won't see this, but thank you for a fuckin' fantastic show and for being some of the nicest, funniest, most supportive, outrageously talented people I've ever met. I wish the show never had to end; I miss the bohemia already!
• spending my Valentine's evening cuddling with a gorgeous man.... even if he's gay.
• being cast as Josephine in H.M.S. Pinafore. I'm so excited to tackle a lead again, especially an operatic soprano role. And I'm super excited that Katie's playing Buttercup!
• the Olympics. They're addictive. I find myself caring SO MUCH about sports that I otherwise would never watch. And like Clare said, it's inspiring to see what these athletes can do.
• the bedazzlement of all the Olympic skaters and ice dancers. Endless entertainment there, my friends. I mean, come on... Johnny Weir rocked a hot pink shoulder tassel and corset lacing. Seriously?! Seriously. (Btw, if you haven't seen his Poker Face routine yet, go look it up RIGHT NOW. So amazing... like the Fug Girls said, it's everything you're thinking and more.)
• K and S for talking me through the ups and downs of my weird-ass boy situation.
• understanding (and being reassured by my girls) that I deserve nothing less than the best. Life isn't worth it if I have to be sloppy seconds.
• music that perfectly expresses everything I'm feeling.
• my upcoming reunion with Sam!!! It's so close now!!!
• (And most importantly:) my wonderful mother, who took such good care of me when I had the nastiest stomach flu from Thursday night through Sunday. (I've been on the mend today.) In complete honesty, I don't know how I'd have made it through without her - yes, it wasn't life-threatening, but the last thing I wanted in the world was to be left alone. And my mama took time off work, let me sleep in her bed, and stayed by my side almost 24/7. I know I probably take her for granted sometimes, and we don't always see eye-to-eye, but I am so, so, so grateful for her.