It's been a girly kind of day. It's been a supper girly, go shopping, praise my own good hair day, find a gift for my boy, jump way ahead in our relationship in my mind, dance around in my own bedroom kind of day. And I'm a little freaked out. Because I don't do those days.
My name is Sam, and I've never really done this before. I mean, I've dated, and I've gone out with guys. I've gone out with more guys than I care to admit to. (Hi guys!) But I don't really do the "falling for someone" thing. I've always had short bonds with men that are good at the time and good for us at the time but that only exist in that period of time. Basically, I'm not used to thinking in the long term when it comes to guys.
And here I am with this amazing guy who I'm not quite dating (and who I really hope isn't reading this), and I'm willing to wait four months to see him, and I can see spending a future with him. And it freaks me out. But in talking (well, texting) with Kelli today, I've been told that this is apparently what girls do. We fall for guys and jump ahead and worry about the little things. I had no idea. Seriously.
Who knew? For once in a very long time, I'm doing something "normal." And it feels very strange.
Today, I am grateful for:
* Kelli enlightening me.
* Kelli and L both supporting my purchase for The Boy. (3-5 business days separate me and a book on the best places to kiss around the Northwest. Again, baby, if you're reading this, and I hope you aren't given what's above, act surprised.)
* my new dress.
* a shopping/Little Rock day with my mom when we were both feeling a little fragile about my aunt.
* not being freaked out by the future possibilities. (Just freaked out that I'm not freaked out. Irony much?)
* L's Kate Nash suggestion. It's playing right now.
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