It got to me even more than I thought it would that I couldn't be at the church with the rest of the family to mourn the loss of my grandmother. She never would have missed it if the roles were reversed. And all I could do was go to chapel here and light a candle for her.
So today was a little bit of a struggle for gratitude. It was hard to get past not being in Seattle and the concrete loss of my grandmother. But there are some little things, and some days, it's the little things that count.
Today, I am grateful for:
- being able to light a candle at St. John's for my grandmother. It's the closest thing to a spiritual experience I've had in a long time.
- Leverage on Netflix instant streaming. I needed to just sit back and cheer myself up a little, and that let me do it. Plus, my parents watched with me, so it became family time, and I didn't even have to talk to my father.
- emailing with my college roommate's mom. I know that sounds weird, but she really took me in as one of her own when my family moved away, and i felt bad that I had lost touch, so I emailed her today and heard back tonight.
- internet shopping. I had to hide my credit card because there's so much I want to buy, but it was nice to see what's out there since I do need to invest in some staple pieces.
- my XBOX360. It's how we get Netflix instantly, and I'm a little addicted to one of the Burnout games right now.
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