Thursday, October 15, 2009

Day 90: Let Good Happen

This week sucks. I'm just going to be honest about that. No happy thoughts can change that.

I got in a gratitude rut this week. With everything going on, I lost sight of the point for a little while. I kept thinking that gratitude doesn't make bad situations good. It doesn't bring my grandmother back, and it won't change that the bulldogs hurt Daisy yesterday or that their owners lied to cover it up. Gratitude doesn't create good situations. "I think I can" doesn't mean you can.

Then it occurred to me: Everything I thought was true, but it isn't the whole truth. Gratitude doesn't create better situations, but it makes them possible. It means that we don't stop ourselves from achieving something or become our own worst enemy. "I think I can" may not make it so, but "I think I can't" almost guarantees failure.

I'm convinced that I couldn't think my way into a better place yesterday, but I think I thought myself into a worse place. So on the 90th day of this journey, I need to recommit myself and realize that it isn't necessarily always about making good happen. It's about letting good happen.

Today, I am grateful:
  • that Daisy is okay. One of the bulldogs bit her above the eye, and she had to be rushed to the vet hospital, but I saw her today, and she's been tended to and has antibiotics to take. She run up and jumped to give me a kiss. She's such a sweetheart.
  • that Rufus stayed with us last night. He's the neighborhood stray, and I was worried something would happen to him last night, so I'm glad he came in and stayed with us. He would make a pretty good house dog.
  • for Con Con. Cue my nerdy excitement. It's going to be amazing.
  • for feeling a little less overwhelmed today.
  • for music.

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