I PASSED

Most performance degrees require an oral exam at the end of your degree that you have to pass in order to graduate. Now, they can ask you anything about all of the classes you've taken the two years you've been here. That's a lot of information! Needless to say I spent my spring break studying like a mad woman and trying to be calm about the whole thing. But I PASSED (and I also cried in front of them---uber embarassment. Uber). See I over-studied. It's like over-practicing, but way worse because your brain decides to leave your body which is exactly what happened during my degree oral exam. Lamecore. Whatevs though cause I totally passed and in like 51 days I graduate. What-what.

So I've decided it's time to start being nice to myself. Why am I soooo hard on myself? I'm definitely my worst critic and I give myself such a hard time about things that don't matter (like crying when I totally passed, so who cares?) to anyone but me. Le sigh. I've always thought if I could just put my brain in neutral or something then I'd be able to just take a time out from myself.

Anyways, this is my new goal and with it me pressing the giant DO-OVER button on life when I move back home (SUPER STOKED). So yeah. Bring it DO-OVER button, I'm soooo ready for you.

So today I'm especially grateful for:

• Passing and Graduating!!!!! WHAT?!
• Going to see some professional Shakespeare tonight in Denver. I haven't seen a professional production in so long!
• Eileen's Cookies. I'm pretty sure you can get them back home and they're like magically delicious!
• Maybe seeing Hamlet (the opera) Saturday...It seems to be a Shakespeare-filled week.
• Carnivale. OMG. Best. Show. Ever. (WHY DID THEY STOP MAKING IT? Oh right, cause it cost a bajillion dollars to make and I can see why CAUSE IT'S EFFING AMAZING!) Also: Nick Stahl? Yes please.
• Lost. ALSO OMG. I might cry when it ends in May. Seriously.
• Being able to go home even if it's quick-like in April for an audition. It'll be fun to see the fam and celebrate my baby brother's birthday early.
• Being nice to myself.