Day 235: More Love

I'm back on the Ark now, having spent last night sleeping in my own bed. It feels good to be back, but I'm still adjusting to being away from him.

I realize I've been a bit emo lately, sulking about being away from Seattle/Edmonds/P. I know that I won't be like this forever, and I thank everyone who has put up with me being super one-tracked. I think it mostly stems from never believing I would feel this way. I didn't think the man of my dreams existed, and I wasn't going to lower my standards, so I had pretty much accepted that I would spend my life "alone." So P coming back into my life and being so amazing was the most amazing shock of my life.

I'm grateful for the twists of fate that brought us together and that we fit so well together, and I'm grateful for the two weeks we got to spend together and the lifetime we have ahead of us. While I'm sad to be away from him, I'm not losing sight of the amazing blessing it is to have ended up with him in the first place. He makes me happy, even from 3,000 miles away.

But I promise I haven't forgotten about the rest of my life. I have no intention of becoming one of those girls whose life revolves solely around the man in her life. I have a lot of great stuff that I'm working on, little and small, and I'm incredibly excited.

And I promise I haven't forgotten about the rest of the people in my life. Loving him so much does not diminish my love for ya'll in any way. There's just more love in my life. I love ya'll, and I love him. Just in very different ways.

Today, I am grateful for:
* being with him.
* our phone date later tonight.
* getting the benefit planning really underway.
* my amazing friends.
* the amazing lifetime of love I have ahead of me.