Rough Day

Hey Ladies (and anyone else who stumbles on this lovely blog)...today has been, well, rough. Life has kind of gotten out of control to the point where I'm like wait, it's November? I've already promised myself that November is going to be the month of productiveness. I've decided to apply for Artist Diploma programs which is essentially a program to stay in school longer and prolong paying those pesky loans and also to bridge the gap between school and the professional world. Needless to say the application process for school doesn't get any easier and it's super competitive out there, so I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I have three schools I'm looking at and I hope it's enough. But today I found out I didn't get cast at all in a show that had the perfect role for me. I'm confused, upset, and tired. I'm tired of this, and unfortunately this is my life. My whole life is going to be one BIG AUDITION. I don't know that I'm prepared for that. How does one pick themselves up brush off the negativity and disappointment and continue on their way? It's just friggin' hard is all. So. I'm trying not to feel sorry for myself and I'm trying to find the positive in my life. Trying.

I'm grateful for:

• My mom. She always listens to me.
• My friends who have offered chocolate and ribs & ice cream for my pain. (Love it).
• For the new website that Sam introduced me to via Kelli. Thanks you two! Super cute website: www.offbeatbride.com
• Chick-fil-a. DELISH! A new one opened up here and it made national news cause the first 100 people got free chicken sandwiches for a year and they camped out during the snow storm. It snowed at least a foot/foot & a half of snow. They were COMMITTED.
• Going home for Thanksgiving. I'm holding onto that right now and am hoping that all of my productiveness will happen before the trek home.

Well ladies, thanks for this venue and for sharing yourselves with me. I read the page more than I contribute and it's fun to read what is going on in your lives. Sending love and good vibes to all of you!