Day 110: Re-Zen

Despite having a perfectly wonderful day, I'm having a sort of off night emotionally. I'm not really depressed, I don't think. I'm just feeling much more reclusive than normal. Even after spending the day at Lake Ouchita Park with Rufus and looking at the lake and then cooking a really tasty and healthy dinner, all I want to do is sit in my room and let music wash over me.

I've been feeling the need to recenter myself lately. I've just been feeling a bit off every now and then. Not that I'm not perfectly happy for most of my days recently (despite a recent low caused by missing a day of medication). But for some reason, when I get time to think, something just doesn't feel right.

And I think tonight's mood is the perfect kick in the ass to do something about it. Since I have about four hours until my chat with Amy (Can't wait!), I think I'm just going to light some candles, draw a bath and get my mind right. Then I'm going to put on a playlist of good music and some meditation and see if I can work out these cranial kinks.

I don't think anything is wrong; I just want to make things a little more right.

I am grateful for:

• a gorgeous day walking Rufus on Lake Ouchita.
• an 80 degree day of sunshine in November.
• feeling really healthy after tonight's dinner.
• having tonight to reboot.
• how much he makes me smile.