Day 111: The Generation Twenty-Somethnig

I feel a lot more at ease with my head space today. It's less jumbled and a lot more apt to take things on. I'm not sure why I didn't take a night like last night sooner after returning from Seattle. I think what it all came down to was that I hadn't taken the time to process everything that has happened. I was so focused on not breaking down, that I moved past things completely.

Last night was definitely only half serene. There were scented candles, good music and an excellent bath. But there were also video games and a chat with Amy. It ended up being a really good mix.

I've still got some processing to do, but I don't see that as a bad thing. It's weird to think how much has happened in the past few months. I hadn't realize how many things had been crammed into some a small time period.

I apologize to those who know me if I seem a little reclusive in the next day or so. In the truest sense, "it's not you; it's me."

Today, I am grateful for:

• Kerrigan & Lowdermilk. I've been playing their music all day.
• sunshine.
• the deck off my bedroom.
• Amy's visit over Christmas.
• comfy winter boots.