Days 238 & 239: Withdrawl

The past few days I've been a little...mopey (the lesser known eighth dwarf). They've been the sort of days where nothing goes wrong, but nothing really goes at all, and I've broken down on both of them. I've missed P and my amazing girls and the life we al have in Seattle. And I missed it all so much that I complete forgot about here.

Today, I am grateful for:
* text chats with P.
* tonight's gorgeous sunset.
* my two dogs. They've both been keeping watch over me.
* everyone who has made the effort to stay in touch despite the distance.
* the amazing people that are in the Arkansas part of my life.

"We may be bitches on occasion, but at least we're endearing."

Today, I'm grateful for:

• having a really good day at work with very pleasant customers. Plus I got to work with Nicole, Mary, and Kaylee, all of whom I love.
• the gals at work being so supportive of my acting. Mary told me they're getting a big group together to see Pinafore. Yay!
• Pinafore slowly falling together... even if it's been a little tedious at times.
• getting Sam into the new season of ANTM. So excited to have a show to watch together(...ish).
• the insanely delicious orange-chocolate-almond-hazelnut-cookie bars I made tonight. (I don't remember the actual name of the recipe... I need to come up with something more concise and creative to call it.)
• my dogs. They have so much personality and such sweet souls. I just love them so much. My day is instantly brightened any time I come home to Gidget bounding over to greet me.

Day 237: Lingerie and Happy Meals (Separately)

Today, I am grateful for:
* waking up early(-ish) with tons of energy.
* getting an appointment next week at PP of LR.
* the enjoyment that came from getting a Happy Meal today in order to get something for P that will finish out his birthday present.
* hummus and pita chips.
* the adorableness that is Doby.
* having good movies (Where the Wild Things Are and Up In The Air) to fall asleep to tonight.
* dropping some serious cash at VS but knowing that it'll all make me feel cute and/or sexy.
* feeling truly beautiful/sexy for the first time in my life.
* having ANTM as L's and my show for the season. Those'll be some fun chats.
* being the adult.

Day 236: To Do

Honestly, I slept most of the day. I woke up at 11am and somewhere in there went back to bed to wake up at 3:30pm. (I promise I did actually get out of bed somewhere in there.) Then it was text chats, a few errands, a food run and some television as I poured over cookbooks and recipes I could manipulate. (I hate following recipes exactly. It feels much better to inject myself into the recipe. Figuratively. Not literally.)

But I have no complaints for the day. It's what I needed, and I'll be more productive tomorrow.

Today, I am grateful for:
* finally catching the season finale of Leverage. It was sooooo(etc) good.
* the way I fell asleep last night and woke up this morning.
* the uber-sweet barista at Starbucks today.
* feeling happier than I ever had.
* having a really kick ass "To Do" list.

Day 235: More Love

I'm back on the Ark now, having spent last night sleeping in my own bed. It feels good to be back, but I'm still adjusting to being away from him.

I realize I've been a bit emo lately, sulking about being away from Seattle/Edmonds/P. I know that I won't be like this forever, and I thank everyone who has put up with me being super one-tracked. I think it mostly stems from never believing I would feel this way. I didn't think the man of my dreams existed, and I wasn't going to lower my standards, so I had pretty much accepted that I would spend my life "alone." So P coming back into my life and being so amazing was the most amazing shock of my life.

I'm grateful for the twists of fate that brought us together and that we fit so well together, and I'm grateful for the two weeks we got to spend together and the lifetime we have ahead of us. While I'm sad to be away from him, I'm not losing sight of the amazing blessing it is to have ended up with him in the first place. He makes me happy, even from 3,000 miles away.

But I promise I haven't forgotten about the rest of my life. I have no intention of becoming one of those girls whose life revolves solely around the man in her life. I have a lot of great stuff that I'm working on, little and small, and I'm incredibly excited.

And I promise I haven't forgotten about the rest of the people in my life. Loving him so much does not diminish my love for ya'll in any way. There's just more love in my life. I love ya'll, and I love him. Just in very different ways.

Today, I am grateful for:
* being with him.
* our phone date later tonight.
* getting the benefit planning really underway.
* my amazing friends.
* the amazing lifetime of love I have ahead of me.

Day 234: Because I know I'll fall into bed when I get back...

Today, I am grateful for:
* being able to sleep in my own bed tonight.
* this amazing trip.
* getting to see all the people I did.
* having two weeks with him.
* text messages.

Day 233: Wichita

It's my last night on the road! And while I'll be sad that this trip is over, I'd rather be in my own bed if I can't be in his in Edmonds.

Today, i am grateful:
* adorable/amazing picture texts.
* Justin's response to a somewhat "spirited" text.
* getting to sleep in my own bed tomorrow night.
* my adorable dogs.
* really hitting the ground running with this benefit.